Sunday, August 30, 2009

the repurcussions of indecision

a sunday, i have no idea what to do with myself - i sleep in, i wake up and lay there thinking that i could just stay here, a lump beneath the very warm covers, the whole day long, but this is my short weekend, the one before my now long weekend, as we get into our new schedule - so, after coffee and prepping pix to post here, i sit, pondering what to do...i really don't want to go back home, but i don't really know WHAT i want to do - museum? no, too late in the day....go to the mall in Toledo or Detroit? no, too far, and i NEVER go to the mall - i mean, i spend money on a lot of stupid stuff, but i haven't gone "shopping" in i don't know how long...besides, i really can't afford it, so shopping actually means going somewhere and feeling depressed walking out empty-handed after seeing things i want and can't afford, or guilty after walking out with things i now have and still can't afford.....i am bored, and after putting over a hundred miles in driving for work yesterday, i don't feel like even the Toledo trek, and given the sorry nature of our local mall, i decided to just go there and see what's new in the several months since last i've been - should be a safe compromise - so, i meander thru a couple stores, and i'm okay with not finding anything, and then i go into a chain store which i never have bought anything from, and i see THESE JEANS in the display window - now, let me just say that jeans these days have lost a lot of appeal for me - the whole super skinny jeans, zipper that extends about a quarter of an inch from the top button, super low rise, squish my ass thing - i don't think it looks good on anyone, and it is definitely NOT my denim-wearin' cup-o-tea...but THESE JEANS they're the "boyfriend" cut - i.e. - when i want to be close to my man, i wanna wear his clothes, and these are his cut-o-jeans - i think they're called the "Kyleigh Boyfriend" - oh yeah, well, he's my boyfriend now bitch, and for buy one get one free, i can keep TWO pairs of his drawers in my drawers!

so, there you have it, girlfriend got the credit card in the wallet, she's got the angel on one shoulder, and the devil on the other, and let me just say, someone gonna be going to confession this week!

and if you've ever been the sort of personality that subscribes to the working theory - "i already screwed up, so why not just get this, too?!" then you will understand the subsequent result of my swing thru Target on the way out of the mall - hey, this wacky little bag is on clearance - man, this goofy hat is sort of "cool" goofy AND it's really warm (insert football shooting flashback here), and man, these boots are pretty kick-ass, and i didn't find anything at the usually cool cheap shoe store (and i am, sadly, a shoe gal) - and these are only that much?
yeah, so there you have it - not to mention the stop at bath and body works just to see what they have, and buy 2 get one free later...well, let's just say i now have 3 new body lotions - i am a velvet tuberose, wild honeysuckle and "midnight amethyst" -- ooh the mystery of me!!! (in all fairness, most of the lotions i have left now are on their last few drops)
....but, ya know, despite the "shouldn't have done that" thread running thru my head, i actually don't feel that bad - cos, the way i see it, if i just quit smoking, this'll all be paid for in no time!!!!!
in the meantime, all the bills are making me want to smoke really, really bad!!!

1 comment:

Amanda LaRae Larkin said...

Ha Ha! Kim this is so funny! I'm right there with you!! Ha Ha! I can't tell you how many times I've done the exact same thing! Hope you're doing well!